Reflections

I feel like going and doing something random, that I've never done before. Any ideas?

Actually, there's no real point to this entry... I just felt like posting. Like, Hiiiiiii! Haha. I'm really bored. There's nothing to do online. (Any ideas?) For some insane reason, my cable doesnt work, so tv is out of the question. And I've looked through an entire box of DVD's (I think I have about 6 lying around, and they arent small boxes either.) and there's nothing that I havent watched or want to re-watch. And there's no one that wants to go out. And there's no one to talk to on msn. And yeah... haha. I say 'and' too much.

And since I'm really bored.... here's a survey. Haha.

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Nothing really big, lots of little stuff, not really worth naming.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I rarely, rarely ever keep New Year's resolutions, yet I make them every single year in hopes that this year will be the year they stick. Haha.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not someone I'm close to, which sucks... I could've done with some babies around! =D

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yeah, my uncle. =(

5. What countries did you visit?
I went... absolutely nowhere. Which I think is the worst thing ever. Hopefully that'll change next year.

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
Hmmm... for some reason, material things come to mind (*cough*macbook*cough*) lol. Though I can think of a few other things now, just stuff I'd rather not put out in a public forum.

7. What dates from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
3rd August - the day my uncle died.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I was so proud of myself when I had a job. Haha. Not so proud when I couldnt get another one though.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Wouldnt really call it a failure, but I guess my lack of self-motivation would count.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nothing really serious.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
I was supposed to buy a macbook, several times infact. Guess it just wasnt the time.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Actually, no one's behavior stands out in particular.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
.... Quote my answer for the question above.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Holy shite, good question. The number of times I've asked myself exactly that.....

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Buying a macbook, several times. Its sad. Haha. A few other things as well. =D

16. What songs will always remind you of 2007?
Not a song, an album. Anything off The Greatest Hits by Ronan Keating. Haha. Lame, I know. But the only thing that really differed 2007 from 2006 was I had my first job. And that Ronan Keating cd was the only cd around there that I actually liked, that played properly, so I played it... over and over and over again. So yeah... The Greatest Hits by Ronan Keating. =D

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier about certain things that i was sad about last year, but sadder about things that i was happier about last year. lol.
b) thinner or fatter? thinner!!! (i think thats just awesome!)
c) richer or poorer? poorer. *sigh*

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I wish.... I'd saved more money. And studied harder. Yeah, that about covers it.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Procrastination. Though to be honest, that will never change. I'm a procrastinator by nature. So.... less goofing off in class I guess.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With my immediate family, one uncle and some friends.

21. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Nope.

22. How many one-night stands?
None.

23. What was your favourite TV program?
Pretty much all the same ones of 2006.

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I dont 'hate' anyone, hating someone takes too much energy that I'd rather use to do something more productive. Besides, even if you hate someone you have some sort of feelings for them. So I'd rather be indifferent to someone than hate them. Which I am. Haha. But in (a very round about answer) to the question, I was indifferent to all the same people last year too. =D

25. What was the best book you read?
Oh my god, sooooooo many. But if I have to just choose one... Dancing Naked at the Edge of Dawn by Kris Radish has to take the number one spot, because its just an amazing book and it had such a huge impact on me.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
- Sunrise Avenue - just discovered them, they're amazing.
- Fiest - sooooooooo good.
- Colbie Caillat - the perfect chilling-out-with-friends music, like Joss Stone meets Jack Johnson.
- Of Montreal - heard of them before, only fell in love with them this year.
- Sigur Ros - cant remember if I discovered them them early this year or end of last, but whatever, they take second spot in my list of best artists ever.

27. What did you want and get?
I got very little of what I wanted. Lets leave it at that.

28. What did you want and not get?
Tooooo many things.

29. What was your favourite film of this year?
Hmmm... I'm not really a film person. *shrugs*

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 18 (officially legal! yay). Had dinner followed by drinks with family and friends, and then went to a club with friends. Was good.

31. What would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A macbook, more money and a boyfriend. In that order. LOL.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
My personal fashion concept.... I think it changed less compared to previous years. Haha. I dont know.

33. What kept you sane?
My friends. My mom. My music. In no particular order.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Ooooooh, I have to pick just one? LOL. Wentworth Miller (a.k.a Michael Scoffield from Prison Break). =D

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Sad to say, but I'm pretty much politically ignorant.

36. Who did you miss?
I missed everyone I care about who wasnt with me at any given point in time.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
Stan! Damn I cant believe I've only met him this year... Its crazy! And Christal.

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007
People don't "change", they become ultimately more true to themselves, whether for good or for bad.

And in talking of 'changes' for 2008, I thought once more of the 101 in 1001. I would love to do it, but I'm wondering if its too big a challenge for me. I mean, given my history of starting things and not finishing them (25 in 250, anyone?). So I think maybe I'll have another go of a smaller version of the 101 in 1001. I've already decided that the time limit will be a year, so basically start date 1st Jan 2008 and end date 31st Dec 2008. But now I need to figure out how many 'things' would be a manageable number. I figure I could do 25 with the right amount of encouragement.... And once I figure out a number, I need to figure out some stuff that I really want to do. And I need to all this by the 31st of December. So any ideas would be appreciated. =D

For a reference... here's my previous 25 in 250 list.

Start date : Monday, 2006.09.18
End date : Saturday, 2007.05.26

1. Find a part time job. [Done this, plus I'll have my internship for the first half of the year.]
   
2. Improve GPA to 3.0 at least. [Has to go, because I wont find out my GPA till end Jan 2009]
   
3. Finish all knitting projects (afghan, hat, wrist warmers [x2]). [Of this, I only finished the hat.]
   
4. Learn to crochet. And complete one article of clothing. [I still want to learn how to crochet. And it will be possible coz my nana will be in Macau next year... hmm...]
   
5. Organize my entire music collection, deleting everything I dont like. Including renaming files and moving to one folder. [This badly needs to be done, but I figure I'll do it when I get my macbook.]
   
6. Drink 1 liter of water everyday for a month. [This should be done, but the chances of it happening are very slim. So I guess it would be a good reason to do put it in the list, huh?]
   
7. Go go-karting [At the time when the list was created, I had never been go-karting. Now I've been a few times.]
   
8. Memorize one bible verse every week. Write out said bible verses in a notebook. [This was in an attempt to make myself more religious, which I now realize is a futile process, I cannot force myself to do anything.]
   
9. Collect 75 inspirational quotes (without using specific internet sites / books). [This would be cool to have, a book of quotes, but reading it now, I see no point.]
   
10. Start talking to friends in cantonese / portuguese as much as possible (where applicable). [Another futile attempt to improve said languages. Though I have started talking more in cantonese.]
    
11. Pierce my belly button. [Done. Would like to get it checked and re-pierced if possible though]
    
12. Blog everyday for a month. Without boring day to day shite. [Ahhh, now this would be a whole challenge in itself.]
    
13. Save $1000. Without putting away more than $20 at a time. [This could be good, with a few changes in specifications.]
    
14. Take a photo every day for 250 days. And put it in my blog. [I lasted all of a week and a half. I blame that on my lack of camera though. =D]
    
15. Go a week with absolutely no junk food. [Never even tried that before I gave up on the list. haha]
    
16. Go for at least a half an hour walk everyday for a month. By myself (Leo optional) with no ipod, phone etc... [Have done this.]
    
17. Put together that photo collage thingy for the living room! [Something else that I never attempted. Would make a good anniversary gift for my parents....]
    
18. Give 3 people a homemade gift for xmas or bday. [Gave two people homemade gifts for xmas last year.]
    
19. Learn the lyrics and meanings to 5 hindi songs. (From 5 different movies, without getting them [the lyrics] off the internet.) [Got one song! yay!]
    
20. Send handwritten letters to 3 people every month for duration of this thingy. [Hmmm.... I like letter writing. I dont know enough people who dont live in Macau though.]
    
21. Finish and frame a 500 piece puzzle. [I dont like puzzles anymore.]
    
22. Write 3 poems, 2 short stories, 1 novel (at least 10 - 12 chapters done by end of this). [Got 2 poems, 1 short story and 1 chapter into the novel.]
    
23. Get 10 friends to recommend 5 song each (that I dont have / havent heard) and only listen to said songs for a week. [This I would like to do.]
    
24. Learn how to make at least 1 dish from 5 different countries. [An attempt to broaden my cooking horizons. Would still like to do this, just need people willing to eat the food. Haha.]
    
25. Have a 101 in 1001 list ready by the time 25 in 250 is complete. [Hmmm... this 25 in 250 list was originally a sort of test, to see if I could pull off the 101 in 1001. Would be nice to see if I can pull the small one off first.]

So yeah, thats my extremely long post for today.

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Over-thinking icebergs...

I think I've been over-thinking things alot lately. Or actually, I dont know if what I'm doing is 'over-thinking' or if everyone thinks as much as me? Anyway, I've come to a conclusion... I need a break. I need to get away from everything and clear my head and get my priorities right. I feel like I'm floundering in one place and I have no idea where I'm headed. What really sucks is that I cant think of anything to do about it. The only solution I keep coming up with is getting the hell out. Yet I cant do that, at least not till I finish college, thats not for another year and a half.

A year and a half is probably not much to some people, but right now it seems like forever. I think it feels even longer than it is because IFT is just not appealing to me right now. I'm just doing the same things day after day and thats it... its become routine, I dont even think about it anymore. I dont want that. This is not how I thought uni would be. I had 4 projects this semester, gotten 3 done. All the while I was standing up there, presenting the projects, I'm thinking "This is bullshit, why are you people buying this?". But everyone, EVERYONE, was like "Oh that was a really good project, I like your idea, yada, yada, yada..." Yet all the while, when I'm working on the projects or anything else for that matter, I just cant seem to put forth more effort. There's no motivation. None at all. Right now my mindset is just "A year and a half. Get it done and get the hell out". I hate that its come to that. There was a time I was excited about stuff like this. There was a time I used to give good ideas and solutions. And now... I'm lost. Or in a rut. Is that what its called? Whatever its called, I need to get out of it. But I have no idea how to get myself motivated again. All my motivation right now is going towards "get the hell out". Which doesnt help me much when I'm trying to study Statistics. Oh and Statistics. I'm so shit scared I'm gonna fail. If I fail, I'm screwed. If I fail, how am I gonna face my dad? What do I say? "I'm sorry you wasted $60000, but your daughter's an idiot who absolutely cannot understand math"? I'm sure thats gonna go over really bloody well. Oh God, I'm screwed.

Its like there's this huge iceberg and I'm standing in the middle and if I take a step in any direction its all gonna come falling on top of my head. My feet are numb yet my legs are cramping, and I need to move...

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Tis the season...

I love Christmas!

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So apparently, I have AIDS

Shocked ya, did I? Haha! So to put your minds at rest, no, I do not actually have AIDS. That was however, what Lil Bro told my dad when he got into the car after school today.

"Daddy, Marcia has AIDS." Needless to say, my dad was shocked, I think his response was something along the lines of "WHAT?", at which point Lil Bro just reinforced what he'd already stated, adding "My teacher told me." So dad asked him how his teacher knew, the answer to which was, "Well, my teacher told me that you get AIDS from needles and piercings, and Marcia got her bellybutton pierced and it got infected, so she has AIDS." At which point dad had to stop and explain to him how exactly needles and piercings related to aids. He didnt however, explain to Lil Bro the other ways that aids can be contracted, which I thought was not the best, but hey... its not my place to criticize.

When my dad related the story to us, my mom and me both laughed for a full 10 minutes. And then proceeded to drop the subject. But when Lil Bro mentioned the me having AIDS thing again in passing a few hours later I was forced to sit him down and explain again that I do not have AIDS and am never getting it ever (knock on wood). Naturally, next I had to add that if he walked around his school telling everyone I have AIDS I would have to murder him. Think I got my point across. Haha.

I am however, wondering if Lil Bro's confusion on the whole needles and piercings in relation to HIV (though, he didnt mention HIV at all, he just skipped straight to AIDS, so now I'm wondering if the subject of HIV was brought up?) was his own, or if his teacher just neglected to mention anything? Wouldn't be the first time Lil Bro's confused stuff, but then again, he's usually pretty quick at grasping concepts. Or maybe this was too big a concept for an 8 year old to grasp fully? Or maybe I'm going too much into it?

I dont know, it is something to think about though.

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Person of the Day... or not?

For about as long as I can remember, I've always had a 'Person of the Day'. This person is someone I happen to see when I'm out who I normally wouldnt see during the course of the day. And everyday, for years now, I have faithfully had a Person of the Day. Every single day. So imagine my surprise when yesterday, for the first time ever, I had NO person of the day. Not one. I didnt see a single person I knew for the entire day. I was shocked. Still am, matter of fact. Has Macau finally gotten so many people that you dont actually see anyone you know when you go out? Has it actually come to that? Or was I just so preoccupied thinking about GJD (=D!) that I didnt take notice of specifically anyone? Haha. Though, to be honest, towards the end of the day, when I was on my way home... I did realize that I had no person of the day, and so made a conscious effort to actually look around to see if I could spot anyone (GJD!). But, alas, to no avail.

I'm not entirely sure whether I like this not having a Person of the Day thing or not. Its weird and new. It will take some getting used to.

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There's this saying, I dont remember exactly how it goes... Something about how people come into your life for a reason, and when they've accomplished what they came to do they go on their way.

I've been thinking about this quote that I dont even remember in its entirety so much lately. Mostly because I have the feeling that a friend who's been so important to me for so many years has gone on their way. There's this little part of me that feels empty coz of it. For some reason when I was thinking about our friendship... I thought of this quote.

This then led me to think about all the other people who've been in and still are in my life. Based on this quote (on a side note - its really frustrating coz I cant find the quote online, and I cant remember where I heard it.) I tried to think of what these people (the people who arent in my life, for whatever reason, any longer) have done for me. The reason they came into my life, so to speak. I think I surprised myself by coming up with things that people have done. I dont know why I was surprised. Maybe coz I've never before stopped to think about the effect people have had in my life.

There have been people who've helped me academically, psychologically, hell even physically. People have come into my life to help me out when I needed to be assured of my intelligence, to prove to me that I do indeed have talent, to show me how to nurture said talent. There have been people who've shown me that I wasnt ugly or disfigured. There have been people when I needed to be looked at as an equal and when I needed someone to look up to me. People who boosted my self-esteem and confidence. People have been there when I needed to laugh, cry or just talk. When I needed advice or to keep my feet on the ground. To teach me a lesson, give me something to learn from and something to respect. For about a million other things, both mundane and not. Most importantly, there were people who were around when all I needed was a friend.

I also realized for as many people whose "reason" for coming into my life I could pin-point, there were also those I couldnt. So naturally, thinking about it, I came up with the theory, that if these people had no real purpose in my life, maybe its me who had a purpose in theirs? (Well, they couldnt just be 'filler' people now, could they?) And if I did have a purpose in these people's lives... what was it? Was it important or mundane? Did I have a big impact? Was it a good purpose or a bad one? Of course, I dont know the answers to all of these... I hope they're all good, but I know there are most probably some bad "reasons" too. Still though, I'd like to know....

In a roundabout way this brings me back to the friend I referred to in the beginning. See, I dont think he has any idea of the effect he's had in my life, but of all these people who've come into my life when I needed something... Without ever knowing it he gave me the confidence I needed to go from someone who was completely unsure of herself and her place in anything to the person that I am today. I'm not saying that I'm perfect now, I'm not, not by a long shot. But now I know that whatever happens, I can get through it. I believe he came into my life to show me how to believe in myself. And he has no idea how much it means to me.

In some weird way though, I hate that his job is done, because I dont want him to be gone now. I miss him so much. Have I ever said that I hate losing friends? Well I do. But I'd lose about a million friends to get this one........................... God, I dont even know what to call him... he's more than a friend (not in the romantic sense) but somehow, while the term best-friend fits my best friend, it doesnt fit him. He's a term all unto himself. Whatever he is. I miss him. I'd lose a million normal friends to get him back.

I had no idea when I started writing this what the point of is was, just knew it needed to be written. So I'm sorry that this is long and rambling and confusing. But now I know.

I guess this is my thank you. Not just to my one friend mentioned, but to everyone, past and present. Even though they wont read this. I need to say it. Thank you. For everything.

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RIP TV Links

The FACT (Federation Against Copyright Theft) has shut down tv-links and arrested its owner.

This is the saddest thing to happen all day. Although it didnt actually happen today, I only found out about it today. It happened on the 20th I think. But whenever it happened, it has affected my day today. I was wondering why it hasnt been working for the last few days... I thought the server was down, coz that's happened before. I even cursed the owner for having server problems. Little did I know... *sigh*

The site is gone, no more awesome old and new tv shows and movies. Sure, there are other sites like it online, but none as comprehensive as tv-links, and most likely if there will ever be a site like it again, it will be a long time in coming.

The stupid part was, tv-links didnt actually host any of their videos... it was links pointing you in the direction you could watch them. They didnt even let you download them. Yet, no one does anything to the sites that actually host the videos. Possibly coz they dont want to deal with the big fish who have lawyers that will fry their asses. (Lol, weird sort-of pun not intended.) I mean, youtube anyone?

However, I did read online somewhere (I cant find the link now) that as the law right now stands, tv-links is not guilty of piracy. Something about the law stating that internet piracy has to involve hosting and providing downloads of copyrighted material. Neither of which, as I've said before, tv-links did. So hopefully, the case will get thrown out of courts on this technicality and there will be another tv-links in future. Well, one can only hope.

In the mean time... us lovely viewers out here will make do as best we can with the meager resources and lie in wait. =D

RIP TV LINKS. You will be sorely missed.

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Procrastination is the root of all evil.

Finish the sentence...

1. I've come to realize that my last kiss was... way too long ago.

2. I am listening to... Song In My Head - Sherwood

3. I talk... way too much for my own damn good.

4. I love... music and books! yay!

5. My best friend(s)... is awesomer than yours! =P

6. My first real kiss... took place at a place that was later dubbed "The Wall of Art". (I didnt come up with the name. shut up.)

8. I hate it when people ask... whether I have a boyfriend. why i dont have a boyfriend.

9. Love is... out there... somewhere... hopefully.

10. Marriage is... (hopefully) hovering somewhere in the distant future.

11. Somewhere, someone is thinking... "Inane questions about law suck. Lets take the subject of law out of the IFT Macau curriculum." (I wish! haha)

12. I'll always... love you. (The song... sort of. haha.)

13. I have a crush on... someone too far away.

14. The last time I cried was because... I found out crappy news.

15. My cell phone... is completely bloody insane. (it keeps randomly switching itself off)

16. When I wake up in the morning... I hit 'snooze'. Multiple times.

17. Before I go to bed... ehmm... nothing, I'm usually too tired to keep my eyes open much less do anything specific.

18. Right now I am thinking about... how lecturers assign stupid questions and ask for bloody references without giving the reference material. Ughhh.

19. Babies are... so damn cute!

20. I get on myspace... very rarely as of late.

21. Today I... went to class, had a midterm, came home, watched ER, read bits of cosmo and taught Owen.

22. Tonight I... have a date with some doctors! =D

23. Tomorrow it will be... possibly the same as today. Minus the midterm.

24. I really want to... get a job. And the internship I want.

25. Someone that will most likely repost this... Kay.

-x-

1. How old will you be in five years?
23. Holy crap. Thats freaky! Excuse me while I contemplate myself no longer being a teen. Wow.

2. Do you think you will be married by then?
Uhhh....... no.

3. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
Getting this damn internship thing down.

4. Who was the last person you called?
My dad

5. Who was the last person to call you?
Patrick

6. Do you prefer to call or text?
text for short things, call for long

7. What were you doing at 12am last night?
watching ER! yay!

8. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
married

9. Who was the last person you thought about?
uhmm... dunno.

10. How many states countries have you lived in?
two.

11. How many cities/towns have you lived in?
two.

12. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
bare feet all the way

13. Are you a social person?
i'd say so.

14. What was the last thing you ate?
a banana.

15. What is your favorite ice cream
chocolate anything. and b&j's almost anything. haha.

16. What is your favorite dessert?
chocolate anything. and cheesecake with the little chocolate bitties in it. lol.

17. What was your last drink?
water

18. Do you like coffee?
oh, do i!

19. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
far far less than i should

20. What do you drink in the morning?
coffee

21. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
hmm... right now, alone. but that would change (i'd hope) with the arrival of a significant other. haha.

22. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
yeah, its called the middle.

23. Do you know how to play poker?
yes i do and i could kick your ass at it too! =P

24. Do you like to cuddle?
yes sirree bob! lol

25. Have you ever been to Canada?
no, but I'd like to

26. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
nope. at least i dont think so... i'd remember that.

27. Do you want kids?
yep.

28. Do you speak any other languages?
that i do.

29. Have you ever gotten stitches?
yep. in my head. when i was 3.

30. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
nope

31. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool
i cant decide....

32. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?
window, no question

33. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
nope but i will soon learn.

34. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
pretty much anything. haha.

35. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
my necklace, bracelet, tie thingy, and 4 stud earrings.

36. What is your favorite TV show?
Gilmore Girls! One Tree Hill, ER, Heroes, Charmed, Ugly Betty, Prison Break etc...

37. Can you roll your tongue?
nope, i can roll my rrrrrrrr's though! haha

38. Who is the funniest person you know?
the funniest.... ehhhhhh CD if you can say I "know" him. haha.

39. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
nope

40. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
the chorus of alanis morissette's "ironic"

41. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
nope.

42. What color are the walls in your room?
cream

43. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?
yep

44. Do you sleep with your closet doors opened or close?
closed

45. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a panther?
bear, coz even if it mauls me it'll leave me alone eventually

46. Do you flirt a lot?
i dont know, do i?

47. What is your favorite food?
Italian and junk food

48. Can you change the oil on a car?
no

49. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
dont drive.

50. Do you dance in the car?
if a good song comes on... which reminds me... *wanders away muttering incoherently*

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Life is evil.

Found out something just now.

Shouldnt cry about it.

But I want to.

Life is evil.

Its out to get me.

This is one fight I cant win.

I'm running away and hiding from it now.

Let me know when its safe to poke my head out again.

*sigh*

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Random rant

I'm so sick of hearing about and dealing with other peoples love lives. Just sick of it. If I hear one more person lamenting about their boyfriend being an ass or squeal about how sweet their boyfriend was I will scream. Long and loud. And hopefully the person talking will go bloody deaf. Though them going mute might help my case more.

Okay, so this sounds like I'm a really bad friend. In all honesty, I'm not. There is only so much a single person can take. And I crossed that point quite a while ago. The fact that I have yelled my head off yet alone should tell you what a good friend I am. I have however, been giving off subtle signals... I think when in the course of a conversation when the person you're talking to starts answering in unintelligible monosyllables it should tell you that the person wants out of the conversation, or at least a new bloody topic, no? But heh, not for my friends. They're too busy ranting or raving to notice. So I sit there and imagine various ways to freaking shut them up. Or imagine various ways to maim their boyfriends. This however, stops very quickly after I realize that if I maim their boyfriends I will have to sit and listen to tales of their boyfriends medical problems. Its a vicious cycle it is.

Actually... I dont mind so much listening to the raving. I like the raving. It just makes me wish I had a guy of my own to rave about. Its the ranting that gets me. I mean, I get that sometimes a person just needs to rant. But why rant at me? You have loads of friends who arent single who you can rant to. They'll sympathize with you if thats what you want. If you're looking for sympathy you are coming to the wrong person. No way in hell are you gonna get it from me. You asked for this. You wanted him. You're the one who chose him, you deal with it. I dont want to.

I would like to deal with the problems in my own love life. Not in the lack thereof. (If that last sentence made any sense whatever to you... kudos.) And there lies my problem. I have none. There's irony for you... my problem is that I have none. Hah. But then talking about it just depresses me even more than listening to other people talk about their love lives. So I dont. I ignore it. And put on a perfectly happy front and a weird (and fake) smile on my face and voila... No one's the wiser.

And yes, I do realize this post made absolutely no sense. But hey... I just typed. What came out came out. And I cant be bothered editing.

When I'm in a better mood I'll come up with a more entertaining post... till then, Ciao.

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Take two.

For some reason yet unknown to myself... I cannot get pics to show in my posts. Or my header for that matter. I have no idea whats wrong with it. AND I cannot get ScribeFire to log me into my account. Its an evil attempt to thwart my blogging plans I tell ye! But as you can see... here I am. Blogging. And therefore prevailing over technology's evil plans. Mwahahaha! And with that mini-rant aside...

I was looking at PostSecret yesterday... these are a few that stuck with me.

Picture 1.

This one's actually pretty creepy. Sounds like the person's talking to a guy, but I get the feeling that the 'her' in question is the person's girlfriend or something. Someone the guy's not supposed to be with in any case. Still though, it feels very stalkerish. Scares me for some reason. [Possibly coz if people are going to stick video camera's in my key rings they'd have many many choices to pick from? Haha]

Picture 2.

Racism is something I despise. Though I'll be the first one to admit that I have made racist jokes etc before [and in all probability will do so in the future] I dont mean them in a way meant to hurt anyone. And when people take racism to these extremes it just irritates me. I feel like yelling at them, or grabbing them and shaking some sense into them. Which is probably not the best course to take, but still.

More so than just the surface subject though, what I thought of when I saw this... was something I was once told by a person I'm extremely close to. Lets call said person 'E'. E said that if I fell in love with and married a person of a certain race to not expect them [E] to like or love my [theoretical] husband at all. Though I was assured that I myself would still be loved and that E's treatment of me would in now way differ from the usual. I guess that this revelation did show me that E is only human and therefore has flaws as well. It still irks me though, that should I marry a person of a certain race my husband would be at best treated civilly and nothing more by this person who is so important to me. I want my future husband to be loved by everyone who is important to me... and this little revelation makes me feel as if I should restrain myself.

On a whole different note... I have two more interviews to go to! The second one at StarWorld and one at Venetian. Yay! Both calls came today and I'm vair happy! The girl who called about the Venetian one though, I dont know if its just coz she was reluctant to speak in English, or if she wasnt trained properly... but for whatever reason, she had no idea how to go about making a phone call like this.

Our conversation went something along the lines of :
Me : Hello?
Girl : Hi, can you speak in cantonese?
Me : I'd prefer english.
Girl : Ok, we have an interview for you on thursday, can you come?
Me : Uhhh... where are you calling from? Which hotel?
Girl : Oh, Venetian. Can you come on thursday at 11 am?
Me : Would it be possible to change the time? Maybe to thursday afternoon?
Girl : I've set up the interview for thursday at 11 am.
Me : So there's no way I could change the time?
Girl : Uhhh... Its at 11am.
Me : Ok, fine. Where do I have to go?
Girl : To the shopping arcade, shop number 2508.
Me : The shopping arcade?
Girl : Yes. Number 2508.
Me : Where exactly is it?
Girl : In the shopping arcade. Shop number 2508.
Me : Ooookay. And who do I have to see?
Girl : Uhh... just go to the shopping arcade, shop number 2508.
Me : Yes, but when I go there who do I have to see? The person's name...?
Girl : Uhhh... just go there and tell them you have a interview.
Me : Thats it? They'll know.
Girl : Yes.
Me : Can I have your name please?
Girl : But at the interview I wont be there.
Me : Yes, but can I have your name?
Girl : I wont be the one to interview you, so you dont need.
Me : Okay. Fine. Thank you.
Girl : Bye.

This was punctuated with as many ahhh's, uhmmm's and pauses as she could muster up. Very efficient, eh? I thought so. The fact that I'm now confused and in all probability will have to make it to the Venetian a full 45 minutes before my interview is totally beside the point. She did what she had to do. Bah, people!

And on that fine and articulate note, I'm off to go do more productive things. Like, oh I dont know, my class presentation that I have to do tomorrow. Haha. Procrastination is a fine thing, isnt it?

Ta ta!

Hi, Hello & How do ya do?

I've not got much to say really... but all great blogs have to start somewhere, eh?

I have an interview today, at 3 PM, at StarWorld Hotel for my internship. I should be nervous... but I'm not. Funny how that works.

Okay, now I'm really blanking on things to say. You know like when there's something that you'd normally be able to talk a mile a minute about but when someone asks you a question on it you completely blank. Same thing happening to me now. Is there a term for it? Hmmm...

Anyway... yeah, first posts are rather pointless. But they get the ball rolling. So now I'm going to stop the inane rambling.

Till next time...

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